Since I posted something, so here's a wallpaper that I made today, featuring Jace and Clary from The Mortal Instruments. Let me know what you think. :)


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Ugh I miss LJ so badly. I miss fic, and ranting, and spamming, and everyone. And, well, JE too. ♥

Oh by the way, I intend to send cards this Christmas! Anyone want to receive some Christmas mail? If I already know your address from THIS POST, I will most likely send you one. You can totally add your address still if you like. :)

Holy fucking shit this is long. /cuts

( Cut for those not interested in my thesis. Props and/or free shrink tickets for you, if you are. )

I'm pretty sure I missed a lot of stuff. But then again this is quite the detailed outline already.

I need a beta for je_holiday !!! The deadline is like less than 12 hours away, and I'm only actually just starting. Dead. Dead, I tell you. School's been tough. Ugh.

Anyone? :((

[01-28] - Glee
[29-40] - NCIS Cast
[41-76] - Supernatural
[77-96] - Johnny Depp


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Last Friday was probably the most dreamy day ever. I never imagined that mixing reality with the boys of my dreams would still actually result to more dreams! Remembering that day now, it seemed like it happened years ago. It's like i wanna see them again. Like, hell NOW.

The anticipation nearly killed me. I got so agitated I couldn't relax on my seat, there was a strict rule that fans should stay seated while performing, but NO the fans just couldn't take it sitting down. Well as for me, i only stood at times where Jonghyun was singing other than that i was busy sitting and trying to etch into my non-photographic memory every detail of Jonghyun's face. (FAIL, there was just too much going on in his body.) When MIghty Mouth was performing, my energy stepped a notch higher for they were just so FUN to watch. And they were able to really connect with the audience making many people convert and become Mighty Mouth Fans. The jazz band Winterplay was perfect after the energetic Mighty Mouth perf, they were able to let us reenergize and recover form the sudden adrenaline rush. (Cool vocalist btw!)

The last song of Winterplay where they played a very long outro, I knew the fans were screaming not because of their perf, but because we all know who will step into the stage next. This was when the fangirl in me totally exploded and went into extreme gaga mode. They showed the Ring Ding Dong MV and then the lights dimmed. Four guys started walking into the center of the stage, the second guy with the shining blonde hair had my eyes fixed on him from that moment on. Kim Jonghyun, this was when our love story really started.

They sang three songs, "stand by me", "juliette" and "ring ding dong". I never really had an idea on how i would react once i see them, i was in a que sera sera mode and would just like to savor every moment of their brief almost 20-minute stay on stage. Upon seeing Jonghyun's face, i forgot i had a boyfriend. (i love you B. :D) I was stuck in the world of Jonghyun and Riezl, i was actually teary-eyed and is on the verge of crying but i stopped because i didn't want to lose my contact lenses, that would be extremely frustrating and bad-timed. I held my tears by looking at other SHINee members. hahaha. That was when i noticed Minho's very small but handsome face, Onew's great smile and key's diva hair. They all look exactly like how i see them on tv and on the laptop which was frustrating coz I was beginning to think that what I'm seeing isn't real but just another perf.

Jonghyun looked really tired and sad. Which broke my heart all throughout the performance. I am very emphatic and sensitive to other people's mood you see, and the aura he radiated made me just want to hug him until he feels better. But as I've said, i still love you jjong. *daydreams of hugging jonghyun*

After the event, let's just say that the drama was too much and it should be on another blog. :)) ~~ but i won't blog about it coz it's just depressing and wrong. makes me want to be a bitch that night. haha.

Reflection and spazzing time came when me and the other ShawolpH members(rap, jen ginny ching unnie, ayisse and nikka) went to mcdo for a very late dinner. (bringing lots of things with that). That was fun guys, we should do that more often to somehow cure my post-seeing Jonghyun live depression. Seriously.

When jen, rap and I were in the cab we talked about what happened. What disappointed us, what was frustrating, was was fun, memorable, what was left of us after we died in SHINee heaven...

Somehow i realized that being a fangirl isn't healthy for me, (but i wont stop hahahaha) seeing them live made me realize how far they really are from me.. how i just can't come up to them and say hi!, talk to them like they are one of the brus, things that you do with friends. And that made me sad.

But still i saw them in the flesh, and I have enough good memories to keep until the next time i see my boys again.

Jonghyun, I still love you, I'm still your fan! It just sucks that you don't know i exist. But i'll just be here in the crowd, until the day you notice and smile at me. :))

I am sorry for the long blog. i know you guys understand. Actually pinaikli ko pa to. hahaha.

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nothing better, nothing better ... but YOU. ~~