Ephemeral Bliss

I just died in SHINee heaven.

2009-11-29T14:19:34Z

Last Friday was probably the most dreamy day ever. I never imagined that mixing reality with the boys of my dreams would still actually result to more dreams! Remembering that day now, it seemed like it happened years ago. It's like i wanna see them again. Like, hell NOW.

The anticipation nearly killed me. I got so agitated I couldn't relax on my seat, there was a strict rule that fans should stay seated while performing, but NO the fans just couldn't take it sitting down. Well as for me, i only stood at times where Jonghyun was singing other than that i was busy sitting and trying to etch into my non-photographic memory every detail of Jonghyun's face. (FAIL, there was just too much going on in his body.) When MIghty Mouth was performing, my energy stepped a notch higher for they were just so FUN to watch. And they were able to really connect with the audience making many people convert and become Mighty Mouth Fans. The jazz band Winterplay was perfect after the energetic Mighty Mouth perf, they were able to let us reenergize and recover form the sudden adrenaline rush. (Cool vocalist btw!)

The last song of Winterplay where they played a very long outro, I knew the fans were screaming not because of their perf, but because we all know who will step into the stage next. This was when the fangirl in me totally exploded and went into extreme gaga mode. They showed the Ring Ding Dong MV and then the lights dimmed. Four guys started walking into the center of the stage, the second guy with the shining blonde hair had my eyes fixed on him from that moment on. Kim Jonghyun, this was when our love story really started.

They sang three songs, "stand by me", "juliette" and "ring ding dong". I never really had an idea on how i would react once i see them, i was in a que sera sera mode and would just like to savor every moment of their brief almost 20-minute stay on stage. Upon seeing Jonghyun's face, i forgot i had a boyfriend. (i love you B. :D) I was stuck in the world of Jonghyun and Riezl, i was actually teary-eyed and is on the verge of crying but i stopped because i didn't want to lose my contact lenses, that would be extremely frustrating and bad-timed. I held my tears by looking at other SHINee members. hahaha. That was when i noticed Minho's very small but handsome face, Onew's great smile and key's diva hair. They all look exactly like how i see them on tv and on the laptop which was frustrating coz I was beginning to think that what I'm seeing isn't real but just another perf.

Jonghyun looked really tired and sad. Which broke my heart all throughout the performance. I am very emphatic and sensitive to other people's mood you see, and the aura he radiated made me just want to hug him until he feels better. But as I've said, i still love you jjong. *daydreams of hugging jonghyun*

After the event, let's just say that the drama was too much and it should be on another blog. :)) ~~ but i won't blog about it coz it's just depressing and wrong. makes me want to be a bitch that night. haha.

Reflection and spazzing time came when me and the other ShawolpH members(rap, jen ginny ching unnie, ayisse and nikka) went to mcdo for a very late dinner. (bringing lots of things with that). That was fun guys, we should do that more often to somehow cure my post-seeing Jonghyun live depression. Seriously.

When jen, rap and I were in the cab we talked about what happened. What disappointed us, what was frustrating, was was fun, memorable, what was left of us after we died in SHINee heaven...

Somehow i realized that being a fangirl isn't healthy for me, (but i wont stop hahahaha) seeing them live made me realize how far they really are from me.. how i just can't come up to them and say hi!, talk to them like they are one of the brus, things that you do with friends. And that made me sad.

But still i saw them in the flesh, and I have enough good memories to keep until the next time i see my boys again.

Jonghyun, I still love you, I'm still your fan! It just sucks that you don't know i exist. But i'll just be here in the crowd, until the day you notice and smile at me. :))

I am sorry for the long blog. i know you guys understand. Actually pinaikli ko pa to. hahaha.

~~~
nothing better, nothing better ... but YOU. ~~

SHINee Subs!!!

2009-08-07T15:17:30Z

i've been watching SHINee's fbg episodes.. and yes i do laugh with the rest of the SHINee world with the episodes.. but in the end, IM STILL FREAKING FRUSTRATED ... coz i can't understand a thing they're saying. huhuhu.

I'm sorry, its just that there are so much to do in school and watching SHINee is the most effective stress reliever.. And i hate not understanding. yeah. thirst for knowledge much thingy. hahaha.

if anyone knows where to find eps with eng subs.. yeah. please tell me and save my sanity hahaha. :P

INVASION

2009-06-16T05:12:36Z

I think it was last week when my sister suddenly texted me while i was out of the house, she went,

"Ate!! pinapalabas yung Fire sa popmyx!!"

For those of you who don't know, Fire is the first single of the kpop band 2nE1 where Sandara Park is one of the members. They just debuted this May and is growing popular in Korea and surprisingly, in the Philippines too.

Now, when i read my sister's message i couldn't believe it!! what the hell is a Korean song doing in our local music channel? I blamed it on Sandara Park, it seems that ABS still wants to make profits out of her.ugh

The other day, while i was in Subic I think, my sister texted me again after seeing "Nobody" by the Wondergirls on popmyx again. Now i dont know what to feel should i be happy or sad?

I went home last Sunday from Subic. I was watching tv, and i saw it for myself, the music video of Wondergirls being aired with romanji subtitles. I made an oblation-like pose and said, kpop is here. I seriously did that.

Imagine my surprise when i learned that 2ne1 "fire" is now on the hitchart. First time i saw it, it was on number 20..just two days after.. it is now on number 9. Damn.

I know it will be a good thing if kpop would really invade our charts, maybe it would mean that my prophecy would come true, that SHINee would visit the Philippines this 2009. [oh god please let SHINee come.]

But the thing is, i don't think i can bear seeing my dear jonghyun's face on the streets plastered on ten-peso posters or fifteen-peso pins.Or SHINee's or any other kpop artists being pirated in Quiapo!! no no no!! oh dear i think i'll burn them on the spot.

So now i guess i'll just have to wait and see. ~aigoo. waiting sucks.

yeah, i know im late. haha

2009-06-06T04:38:48Z

Even though im sixteen hours late of watching the SHINee comeback perf. I didn't expect myself to cry upon seeing the boys cry!! GOSH. Truly, SHINee, you are embedded in my heart. Saranghae SHINee!!! *wiping tears* but yeah, seriously, i cried. I'm so happy and proud I feel like I'm their mother. LOL. :))

~~now they got me to blog on lj? SHINee's power over me..~~aigoo.~~

GAD. From Riceballs to SHINee.

2009-04-16T03:29:47Z

Okay i confess. I only made an lj account so i could pirate lots of pics, vids, maybe read a little fanfic now and then. Spazz a lot. Keep posted with any Twilight and SHINee news. And well.. you get the point. :))

God, my love for SHINee is in a whole new level. Its different with the time i went abusing lj for anything related to Twilight. Now, i feel like i breathe SHINee.. like oxygen. Damn. This is getting out of hand. BIG TIME. Hahahha.

I can't concentrate on sleeping. Every little thing I do i associate with any of the guys, my friend and I were making riceballs the other time and we ended up making riceballs associated with the members. Talk about obsessed. DOES SHINee REALLY HAVE THIS KIND OF EFFECT ON PEOPLE? Gosh. AND THEY ARE ONLY IN THEIR TEENS. I feel like pheromones are bursting each time I see them. Wish i could experience them LIVE. Couldn't care less how much it will cost, would sell any organ for them . hahahahha :P anyway, here's our SHINee inspired rice balls.

This is TAEMIN. See the bangs. hahaha.

MINHO dude. Wearing a jacket. Its the tallest riceball we made, :P

KEY UMMA my friend likes Key a lot, thus the hearts.

JONGHYUN was cut. Damn cam. haha. anyway, its a square one for blinghyun. coz he has rough facial edges. kinda square jawed too. :P but love him to bits!

ONEW is the biggest and whitest riceball. charisma tofu. :P

here they are all together. :P

hey

2008-10-09T03:00:52Z

hey fellow rpatzz lovers! this is really a great idea! i got really excited when i read about this comm on mtv. :D

anyway, im not really good with technical stuff but ill be glad to help with the promotion and the sending of whatever gifts, i think it would be good if we have something for rob coming form all parts of the globe coz im sure he has a huge international fan base. :D problem will be where to send it? haha. keep me posted soon. :D

i did this cause i think i should. :)

2008-10-01T05:19:56Z

Name: Riezl
Age: 18
Location: Manila, Philippines

Robert, Cedric, or Edward? ROB of course, :)) i love him for all the things he does.

Why do you love him? coz for one: he's super hot, vampire or wizard. he's a musician.. yes! something in common! he plays the piano! another big plus. and he DAZZLES me.

What other Robert movies have you seen? harry potter 4 and five. i would like to get hold of his other films but i dont have the resources yet. :D

How long have you loved Robert? since 2oo6

What kind of roles would you like to see him in next? Something with a little Landon-carter bit or like in hayden christensen's jumper. :))

Here to contribute Robert graphics, icons, or fanfiction? JUST FOR THE LURVE OF ROB!

Suggestions/Comments: KEEP THE LOVE ALIVE!

yes, im new.

2008-09-28T05:47:47Z

yes, welcome me to livejournal! actually. i only made this account so i could catch up on twilight news and stuff. but if i know you from somewhere feel free to add me!

and i m sorry if my site's messed up. Coz im not really familiar with lj so im still trying to figure out how it works. :D